Im Out of Time

One of the first things I became aware of when I pulled my head out of the sand, was how little time I had left.
Every second was needed to accomplish what I wanted to achieve.

As this understanding permeated through my bones I had a natural inclination to examine every second of my life.

Is watching YouTube shorts before bed leading me closer to my goal? Is getting happy hour with my coworkers getting me closer to my mission? Is calling my mom every day moving me closer to my goals?
The answers to the questions may be a yes for you. I would carefully examine those yeses.

A theme that permeates, in many parts of life, is the saying, “if it’s not a hell yes, then it’s a no”
There are many practical limitations to this but when one becomes attuned to how limited their time is, pursuing hell yeses yields higher returns.
Hell yes in endeavors that get me closer to my goals. Hell yes to people who share the same vision as me. Hell yes to people who value me.

I would like to take a step back, and point out a particular feeling.
Quotes like “time is the one resource we never get back or time is the most valuable thing a man can spend” are prevalent all throughout society.
Yet their true meaning is not felt.
The average US adult is estimated to spend 2 hours a day on social media. The average US adult does not make money on social media – those 2 hours are not productive. The average Netflix consumer spends 2 hours daily on Netflix. That is more than 600 hours a year!

Consider your own life, and of the people you know. How many watch TV, movies, and consume social media. The ones that don’t, how rare are those people?

For the dear souls, who happen to read this exploration, I ask you a question.
If you intellectually know time is your most valuable resource, why are you okay with wasting even a second this special substance? Why was I okay with wasting my time?

The truth is I didn’t feel it. I didn’t feel how fast time was slipping through my fingers. I didn’t understand it in my bones. That in my early thirties, I had already missed out on being able to accomplish certain goals in this life.
I don’t want to look back to yesterday, the way I look back to my twenties with the feeling of I wish I was all in on that. I wish I had chosen path more discerning of my time.
The feeling of something valuable being lost everyday, was felt deep in my bones. If my time was being burned every second, why not spend it doing something that I deeply crave, doing something that I was put on this planet to do.